Meet Joshua
You’re Not Alone in This—I Know What It’s Like
Hey I’m Joshua.
I thought I had "arrived”.. at least to the things I thought were most important.
I had spent years building toward success — not just in my career, but in my spiritual life, emotional health, relational life, and personal growth.
I had developed strong spiritual practices, felt a deep and ongoing connection with God as Father, Jesus as Savior, and the Holy Spirit, was leading in ministry, and helping others grow in their faith. I had been in therapy for years, intentionally facing some of the most broken parts of me. I had been discipled and mentored, regularly studied Scripture, attended an incredible church, and cultivated a prayer life I felt good about.
And yet, in the middle of a major life transition, everything fell apart.
I effectively lost my business — not all at once, but piece by piece. Telling my team they no longer had jobs and watching their faces was gut-wrenching. Years of work amounted to almost nothing left in the bank. The loss wasn’t just financial; it was existential. How did I so succeed and still end up here?
Then, my relationship — the one I thought would turn into marriage — ended, suddenly and painfully.
Even with all the work I had done for myself, I hit a breaking point. I had tried to face my deepest struggles, but I just couldn’t quite get to the root of them.
There were still parts of me I hadn’t been able to access — harmfully judgmental, self-condemning, and critical parts that caused harm to myself, and more importantly, to others. That was one of the hardest realizations: I had done so much work, yet I still had blind spots that left real wounds in their wake.
Physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually, I came to the end of myself.
Burnout wasn’t just a mental fog — it became physical exhaustion, chronic pain, sleepless nights. I had always prided myself on pushing through, on figuring things out, on holding it all together. But suddenly, I couldn’t.
And then came ‘that moment’ we all have that changed everything.
A friend said something that shook me: "My life doesn’t make sense if God isn’t the one authoring it."
I had always said the same thing. But for the first time, I saw the truth: I had been writing my own story, white knuckling a death grip on the control handle, and now it was crushing me.
I realized that no amount of effort, success, or even spiritual practices alone could restore what I had lost. I had reached my limit—and I couldn’t fix this on my own.
The truth was, surrender wasn’t just a last resort; getting off the throne of my own life was the only way forward.
But that moment of surrender wasn’t just some spiritual platitude. It was the only way forward. Striving harder wasn’t the answer. Letting go was.
In 12 Step work, the first 3 steps summarized are, “I can’t, God can, so I guess I’ll let him.” And this was exactly it. I needed something deeper — something Holy Spirit-led with biblical and researched grounding that was real enough to reach into the places where my soul was still searching for home.
Because of the tools I’ve gained from doing this interior freedom work over the years, I was able to walk through that season in a way that didn’t break me — but instead brought me deeper connection with God, myself, and others, led to healing, and strengthened me to carry the weight of life like I never had before.
There was an experience of some of the richest moments with God I’ve had, bound up in loving support with others.
That’s why I do this work now. Not just because I know what it’s like to feel lost, but because I know there’s a way through it.
A way back home.
If you’ve ever felt like you’ve done everything right, yet still can’t seem to bring relief or resolution to the things you’ve been stuck on — then maybe it’s time for something different; a process that’s built for just that.
Is this you?
Or maybe you feel like life has just beaten you down, or even that you’ve done everything wrong, and you’re desperate to get back on your feet and find comfort with God and others — then know that healing and restoration are available to you. And you can step into it.
Or Is this you?
Or perhaps you’re in a place where things are okay (or even good!), but you know that life can turn upside down in an instant, and you want to be prepared — grounded enough that when the unexpected comes, you’re not left feeling surprised and undone. Your past and present wounds can catch you off guard — let’s heal them so they don’t sabotage your future.